Yes, I'm back! This time as a playboy. So, does a playboy writes anything? Nope, not much. Too much of thoughts are channeled into the ladies. There's two Austrian girls, two italian girls, two greek girls, two or three german girls, one taiwanese girl and many many more. And they are still not enough for my pleasure. So, I shall seek out more lady victims.

This lil girl, sweet smile (too sweet), looks really like her. Reminds me so much of her. Although it's a party, i instantly became antisocial. My mom came in and give a dissapointing eye. My dad told me to go for a trip to grandmas. Well, there isn't anyone that i know around anyway. How can i possibly be having fun with lil kids?

Things that are bothering me is that girl. She have a very close relationship with my brother, infact, she sits right behind my brother in class. I've been wondering why my brother likes that stupid Jay Chow. Now it's apparent that this girl is the main influence of his liking to this songs. Like me, there isn't any thing that i've developed interest into that has nothing to do with the girl i'm having a crush with. (this lil girl loves Jay Chow)

I hate to admit a fact that everything that I ever wanted to do, or really like, has everything to do with a girl i'm having a crush on. Wanting to further my studies, wanting to drive a car, to go to movies, to listen to songs, to play games, are all results of influence from the girl of my dreams. If there isn't such feelings, i would have been a dead wooden log right now. Useless in everything i do.

I dont like hanging around with my family, because the girl of my dreams aint there. I dont like to go to parties, unless the girl of my dreams is there.

There are 3 types of people in this world. The leader, the follower, and the selfish bastard. I appears to be the follower, how sucky is that? And these girls that I kept having crushes with, are the leader in their everyday lifes. Making changes to everyone they meet. How interesting is that?

Some people say, looks aint everything, but truth is, it's everything. I'm not that bad looking, but I dont have the attractive personality. Not even the potential to have it. That just sucks terribly.

Okay, It's suppose to be party time, I should be enjoying myself with those kids. I just hope that writing a new entry will somehow lift up my spirit to go out again. Now, say Cheese!

Love is the spirit of devoting yourself to someone important and close to you
It is expressed by caring and protecting that person.
- Naruto

There are always signs to read, but as usual, girls are complicated. You never know what they are thinking, they tend to think too much about nothing. And damn, that kinda starts to sound like me...

So, it's over...

I hate that word when it applies to me. But i still can't run away from the fact that i'm either deeply hurt, or extremely jealous.

Even you are not reading this. I just want to let you know, how much I had felt for you.

When I first met you, I just can't resist getting my eyes off you. I followed a friend to GSB to make some new friends. I remember it was right in front of GSB. You were in red with your brother. I was asking myself who is that girl in red. Little did i know that you were actually so close to me but just so happened that we have never met. I told myself this has to be something special.

I still can't believe it, after so much i've done, is this what i'm suppose to get? Betrayal? behind my back?

There's got to be more than that, there's got to be, i can't believe anybody can just walk of like that. And the worst part is that bastard is taking over. What is the worst that could happen??

I need help, i'm desperate for aid. I need some good advices for myself to move on. Gosh... i cant believe it. Backstabber!

what happens when you find somebody else hitting on your girl? and as you know, typical person would do unworthy methods to put away thier competitor. Should I resist?

And knowing him, he would have condemned me in front of her, big time... that would give her a very bad impression about me. Why the hack am I worried? why?? I shouldnt give a damn about it at all...